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Jun. 2nd, 2001 | 12:51 pm

After years of constantly having depression following me around, I've decided that it rather sucks.

Unfortunately for me, it seems like I've developed the habit or custom of responding to things in a depressed way, I frequently obsess about depressing things.

I wish I would stop it.

However it's been such a deeply ingrained habit that it's hard to escape.

faeriechilde suggested that I do something radically different from my regular life. Go some place far from what's familiar, somehow to show that the world can be different from the tiny boxes that I live in.

I wonder if it would help?

I've got one friend who had similar problems with isolation in her rather limited world, still oppressed by her parents. She met someone from the san fransisco area, and then started making journeys up there. When she was just visiting things were better. They gave her hope.

Then she moved up there and got a job in a dot-com.

And then she returned to her previous life of avoiding life through work.

Of course I could just be being unnecessarily pessimistic.

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Stephanie Wukovitz

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from: sebab
date: Jun. 2nd, 2001 06:30 pm (UTC)

I sometimes find it helpful to pretend I'm in a play or movie, with the job of acting happy and content and even extroverted, despite feeling otherwise.

Quite often this technique works, and the exterior manages to drag the interior out of the dumps. In fact, sometimes it's even been successful in making me more like the kind of person I want to be.

But I know people for whom it *doesn't* work, too, so YMMV.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Jun. 4th, 2001 12:17 am (UTC)

But. But...

"Making me more like the kind of person I want to be."

That's really neat.

Other's have suggested that technique to me before, though I think the thing that most slows me down is that I've got this strong tendancy to not hide anything about myself.

However that can be rather limiting.

Most recently I tried focusing on the positive things in me (like visiting friends) instead of sitting around and sulking.

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from: nalicious
date: Jun. 3rd, 2001 07:29 am (UTC)

Leaving and going someplace completely new can be fun, and can be rewarding. I basically ran away to boarding school. The school is pretty unique in not having many cliques, and pretty much everyone develops really close friendships, which I did. In the other travel I have done I have found that if there is a friend with me, someone to share the experience with, I enjoy it much more. Just going someplace and expecting ot find happiness seldom works. BUT, if you go somewhere for a brief amount of time, say Venezuela for two weeks, and you don't expect to meet anyone, but just want to experience everything as intensely as possible and then go back home to your nice comfy safe world, I could see that having a positive effect.

You mentioned sugar messing you up, it does that to me too, I've found that eating fresh foods, even when it is hard to make myself get up and make them, helps as well.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Jun. 4th, 2001 12:21 am (UTC)

You mean, if I follow the rainbow to the pot of gold on the other side and then frolick in the greener grass I wont find lasting happyness? ;)

I needed to visit portland once and instead of just going for my appointment I went for a few days longer and spent the time wandering around. It was rather relaxing. Yeah, I'd probably have enjoyed it if I was a bit more extroverted and had found some people to talk to. But even without that it was still really pretty and quite different from my experiances here in L.A.

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