One of the things about her that's recently crossed my mind is "Why would someone that attractive be spending time with ugly ol' me."
There's two problems with that statement, the obvious, thinking poorly of myself. The other, seems to be related to being too worried about peoples apperance.
I started worrying that I may be being too superficial about who I'm interested in. They have to be both good looking physically and intellectually stimulating. The wanting to be involved with someone whose physically attractive bothers me.
I wish I didn't feel so desperate, I think then I wouldn't feel so anxious (from the fear that I'll never find someone attractive (intellectually, emotionally, & physically) who returns that affection. Of course feeling anxious about that just makes it that much harder to get to know people.