Unfortunately I recently learned that I was making her rather uncomfortable. Which returned me to my place of feeling pretty hopeless about finding a relationship.
Then to rub things in even further a straight friend was IMing some bi woman who had been flirting with her. The bi woman asked to see a picture of me, and then said "she's not that cute."
After that dual rejection I was once again trapped in hating myself.
But I managed to pick up some of the shattered fragments of my psyche and forced myself to go dancing. I didn't go for long, and spent to much to get in, but I think for the first time in my life I went to a club by myself and danced.
Sadly being halloween there were way more people than usual at bar sinister, and it sure felt like it was skewed even further toward straight.
But I do think a guy flirted with me. I do feel for them when I reject them, (rejection being a feeling that I am all to familiar with).
Oh yeah, and my formal/dressy wardrobe sucks. I really need to find some decent tops.