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Apr. 6th, 2004 | 01:02 am

I went to J's house tonight for dinner and she complained about my obession with the rather depressing state of the world. She started with trying to convince me to do something more positive, like raise money for a specific cause or some other activity that would involve dealing with random people--an activity I find extremely stressful.

As the night wore on I felt increasingly alienated and withdrew rather completely into myself. There were a few occasions where I was strongly tempted to pick up my stuff and walk out the door without saying further.

I feel really unhappy since I feel like I can't share anything that's important to me with her. I really like technology and she finds it unpleasant. I enjoy trying to understand the current state of the world while most people, including her, find it far to depressing to contemplate.

(The confusing thing is that for me focusing on the current state of our environment was less depressing than my feelings of my own life.)

Also since in her life most of the vegans she's known other than me have been crazy, she's not convinced that vegan propaganda is that acurate. She told me that she suspects the vegans lie to advance their agenda.

This conversation left me feeling distrustful of her and wanting to protect my feelings from her.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Apr. 6th, 2004 02:27 pm (UTC)

It's really hard for me to make any actual change as I frequently measure myself against an impossible standard.

Also most of the simple volunteer opportunities don't really resolve the issues that I'm most worried about. As far as I understand we need to design a society that doesn't use fossil fuel, is able to stop population growth, and to eat lower on the food chain (both for our own health and to leave some space on our planet for other species).

I really don't know how to best do those things, especially given my difficulties dealing with people.

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