Repulsive monsters like me shouldn't deign to torture those around me with the noxious aura of my presence.
I feel too fat/big. The common response to such a thing being go on a diet, lose weight. However I have investigated my rib cage, and compared to the women around me it seems to be twice to three times as thick running front to back. There is absolutely nothing that can be done about this. Having surgery to remove bones is rather frowned upon.
There is no way for me to ever even remotely feel like I'm close to a tolerable "female" body.
I can't imagine ever finding clothes that fit and look good... Sackcloth and ashes left the fashion scene somewhere around the founding of christianity.
I can't imagine anything that would actually allow me to think of myself as anything other than a gigantic pile of vomit.