Diane Trout (alienghic) wrote,
Diane Trout
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Why do I bother

Desire leads to suffering.

I desire to be loved. This desire has brought me nothing but agony throughout my entire life. There is no outcome other than utter misery.

I want what I can never have.

I watched other women casually show interest in the cute activist with a confidence that I could never match. Although I think that she's impressed with my intelligence and knowledge, I doubt that she finds me attractive.

Nor do women ever act like they want my number.

She does worry about hurting people and the frustrating thing is that in some situations is that because of conflicting desires, someone will be hurt. It's not really anyones fault, it just happens.

Or perhaps I just give up too easily.

Whatever, I still feel rejected, lonely, and rather doubt there exists any woman who would be willing to put up with my insecurities and lack of confidence in my body. (Though they probably don't know why I'm only ever a friend and never someone's romance.)
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