A friend mentioned their success in improving their abilities at dealing with dating and all its related horrors because of getting glasses and that it allowed better observation of others non-verbal cues.
I reacted poorly. First I wrote a rabid response describing why glasses would not help me deal with the long list of issues I have. Then I got depressed. Then there was some more depression. And after dinner another round of depression, self-hate, frustration, suicidal fixation and other run of my mill unpleasantness.
It's not fair that the slightest wrong comment about love and relationships, and I start fantasizing about introducing the blue lines in my wrist to sharp pointy things.
I think the despair comes from my hopelessness about me ever having a successful loving relationship that doesn't involve an emotional betrayal. Needless to say collapsing into a fetal position whenever someone even mentions this in front of me is an excellent method of crushing any potential interest they might've had.
To build a really good psychological trap really requires something of the pattern.
If x, then y and if y then x.
Getting really stuck needs the feedback loop.
Hmm... and once again writing in my journal about it in a nice dispassionate way really does help at putting my emotions back in the proper little box.