June 24th, 2001

thoughtful

(no subject)

Really attractive women leave me with in an odd attraction/aversion state.

Last night at the concert one of the women standing in front of us was really good looking, dressed well, and to top it all off was a friendly extrovert too.

So the low self-esteem portion of me was intimidated and unhappy because at times I wish I could look somewhere near that good.

The part of me that's attracted to other women, well, kind of by definition, was attracted.

Though one interesting side note, is perhaps it's easier for an extrovert to be willing to present themselves in as attractive. In my life some of the few times that I've tried dressing up some, the extra attention tended to scare me and I returned to the comfortable world of looking like a slob.