Also my family gave plenty of messages that bodies are icky messy things with no redeeming characteristics.
The other interesting thing is I think one of the motivations about wanting a romantic relationship is it seems those kinds of relationships are more likely to be treated seriously. It's rather uncommon for one to move accross the country for a friend, whereas it seems more likely to happen for a "romantic relationship".
I wonder if the world would be a better place if we did the reverse, valuing close friendships the highest. It does seem that sexual attraction does distort how compatible one feels with someone.
I'm tired of being alone.