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Oct. 31st, 2004 | 02:26 am

So there was a girl that I thought was interesting, but I was a bit bothered because I suspected she might've been too young for me. But, having not met many others decided to try flirting with her.

Unfortunately I recently learned that I was making her rather uncomfortable. Which returned me to my place of feeling pretty hopeless about finding a relationship.

Then to rub things in even further a straight friend was IMing some bi woman who had been flirting with her. The bi woman asked to see a picture of me, and then said "she's not that cute."

After that dual rejection I was once again trapped in hating myself.

But I managed to pick up some of the shattered fragments of my psyche and forced myself to go dancing. I didn't go for long, and spent to much to get in, but I think for the first time in my life I went to a club by myself and danced.

Sadly being halloween there were way more people than usual at bar sinister, and it sure felt like it was skewed even further toward straight.

But I do think a guy flirted with me. I do feel for them when I reject them, (rejection being a feeling that I am all to familiar with).

Oh yeah, and my formal/dressy wardrobe sucks. I really need to find some decent tops.

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Dieppe

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from: dieppe
date: Oct. 31st, 2004 01:49 pm (UTC)
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But I do think a guy flirted with me. I do feel for them when I reject them, (rejection being a feeling that I am all to familiar with).

Probably a reason I don't feel bad for you for your rejection stories. You've probably rejected as many as have rejected you... and there is balance again in the force---or the universe or whatever.. :)

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Oct. 31st, 2004 01:57 pm (UTC)
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So basically you're saying that I should just get over this whole lesbian thing and date men?

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Dieppe

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from: dieppe
date: Oct. 31st, 2004 02:09 pm (UTC)
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No, I'm saying that it's refreshing that you get to enjoy both sides of rejection.

I've only got to enjoy one side of it, after all. :)

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Dilinger

Rejection

from: dilinger
date: Nov. 3rd, 2004 08:35 am (UTC)
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Perhaps you should stop making rejections. Allow things to go as far as they can. Be a pumpkin along for the ride.
If you have trouble getting over the way people react to you, then you should do the same for others.
Dieppe, is working this Karma angle. People come and go. You seemed to be tied up in the outside appearance just as much as those your try to woo, possible passing up those you would be happy with.
Please don't take this as permission to be a slut. I'm just saying go the extra mile, and make more connections. Get to know more people and don't put up barriers to intimacy.

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Diane Trout

Re: Rejection

from: alienghic
date: Nov. 3rd, 2004 12:15 pm (UTC)
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I went through a period of going along with things in a rather casual sexualized environment and ended up with a host of emotional scars.

I did recently try dating a girl who asked me out, but wasn't really interested in her and ended up being somewhat callous.

And yes, I am biased by appearance and also wanting compatible interests, which makes things really tough.

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