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Mar. 3rd, 2004 | 04:14 pm

My therapist pointed out today that perhaps I obsess with things that are wrong with the world as a way to justify the insecurity that I feel.

It makes sense; I grew up in an emotionally unstable fundamentalist christian church that encouraged people to be fearful of the "world". Though the church liked to tell people that they could trust other church members I rather rapidly learned they were lying.

Not to mention my parents fought constantly which for a young child makes it really difficult to ever feel any security. Then I also turned out to be queer which given my parents fundamentalism left me feeling even more alone and distrustful of others.

For instance, though I have a good justification for saying that we will have a recession or depression in the near future, that's a long way from the apocalyptic world I'm frequently afraid of. More realistically during the Great Depression which is a likely model for what will happen, people did come together to solve the economic and environmental problems they were facing.

Also since I'm aware of the various likely scenario I can actually take steps to prepare and thus survive reasonably well.

I should stop giving in to the fear that many branches of christianity like to infect people with. (Think of all the fear-mongering that Bush has been doing.)

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Josh

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from: irilyth
date: Mar. 3rd, 2004 04:44 pm (UTC)
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The fundamental premise of Christianity is that you are evil, but by prayer and repentenance, someone else (Jesus) can save you from eternal torment. A Christian could probably spin that in a way that doesn't make it all about the fear of hell (or the fear of not getting to spend eternity in paradise, if you want to look at the lack of upside rather than the downside), but there's a pretty crucial sense in which you start out screwed, with no chance of survival without the benevolence of an invisible and ineffable Someone Else. Sounds pretty scary to me.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Mar. 4th, 2004 12:03 pm (UTC)
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My parable of christianity:

Imagine someone walks up to you and says, you owe me $1,000--but since I'm such a kind a benevolent person, as long as you're grateful you don't have to pay me.

You'd probably be rather suspicion of such a person and ask why do I owe you anything. Then they answer that "because you were born, I had to kill my child."

At this point your probably going to be trying how best to have this person arrested for being criminally insane.

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Josh

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from: irilyth
date: Mar. 4th, 2004 02:36 pm (UTC)
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http://www.jhuger.com/kisshank.mv is a longer amusing parable in a similar vein, if you haven't seen it before. Some of the links at the bottom of the page are also quite good.

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