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Dec. 23rd, 2003 | 12:13 am

on the yoga journal website one of the essays on sitting with depression reminded me that some of what is going on inside of me is that I am used to looking for problems to solve, things that are wrong with me. This has been happening for so long that I have little experience of being with what is right.

In the book I just bought the comment the false self being disconnected from the body struck home. One difficulty is that I am quite disconnected from my body, which makes sense considering how I provided a persona for my parents that was at odds with what I felt.

As a result it's rather hard for me to feel real.

It is rather obvious to me that the self is a deliberate construction as I have engaged in a deliberate artifice in constructing a self. And knowing how artificial it is, how much it is the product of my own efforts it is rather easy to worry that it will disappear.

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the Edward

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from: thedward
date: Dec. 23rd, 2003 09:39 am (UTC)
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Have you actually practiced yoga or any form of meditation? That sort of thing can really help you get in sync.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Dec. 23rd, 2003 11:02 am (UTC)
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Yes I have, though not that seriously recently.

Right now I'm reading several sources on meditation and yoga as spiritual journey. Hopefully it'll help.

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