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Oct. 9th, 2002 | 09:47 pm

What is it that I run from?
The silent stillness of not occupying every moment.
Why is confronting the self so frightening?
Why is it that I flee to work or obsessing about environmental issues?
What is so hard about, Who am I? What do I what? Where am I going?

I think the answer is a fear that I'm not good enough, that I'm inadequate, that I don't belong. And so, at times, I hide from confronting that fear. I accept the "there must be something wrong with me" society has taught me without question, even though when staring at it with reason its illogic becomes obvious.

And so, by running, nothing is solved. Yet our society encourages hiding from facing one's own existence--a million distractions for tens of fears.

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from: akym
date: Oct. 9th, 2002 11:34 pm (UTC)
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Yes, exactly.

You might find this interesting.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 01:01 am (UTC)
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Thank you for linking to that post about the forces arrayed to make people miserable, I need to remember that as frequently as possible.

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Melody

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from: melodymuse
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 08:05 am (UTC)
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Let go of 'the self' for awhile. Just be.

Sounds corny, sounds simple and trite but take it from one who let's her introspection get the best of her at times.

There are people around you who love you and see you with kinder eyes. Lean on their perception for a while.

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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 01:15 pm (UTC)
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That's really true, I do have that "I'm not good enough" self-flagellation. And most people I know seem to think that really I am "good enough".

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Melody

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from: melodymuse
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 01:55 pm (UTC)
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You are much more than just good enough. Soon... you will be hailed as the Birthday Girl!

HURAAAAYYY!

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adrienne

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from: sapience
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 10:14 am (UTC)
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Diane Trout

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from: alienghic
date: Oct. 10th, 2002 01:11 pm (UTC)
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*chirp, chirp*

*hoo hoo*

*creak*

*whooo*

*rustle*

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